I am the stone that has not yet been turned...

Sheesh people
This whole labor dispute bites bigtime. I haven't exaclty taken a side just yet, but it's ridiculous because there is a certain selfish quality to both sides of the argument...at least things are slowly, albeit not so smoothly, getting back on track. Someimes, i think people just need to take a second and look at the bigger picture here and set their own personal issues aside for the good of everyone else around them. Humans are inherently selfish...I heard that the other day while watching TV. I have tried to live my short life thus far to disprove such a statement, but sometimes, I wonder...maybe it is. But I refuse to believe that selfishness drives humanity forward. It's service to others that makes us feel most happy, isn't it? Well it does for me... Now mind you, I don't mean sacrifice everything you stand for or anything like that, I'm just saying put the petty things down and deal w/ it. I mean guage the situation, weigh it all out. Be more adult about things. I mean a week of labor disputes just rocked an already teetering economy. eeeeew, look at me, talking about political stuff, I'm disgusted w/ myself.

Ruffling Feathers
I actually cried a lil the other day, while on Freakin IM....can you believe it? Freakin Mr. Sensitive all of the sudden....

person 1 (12:24:30 PM): You don't care?
liljayster78 (12:24:36 PM): did I say that?
liljayster78 (12:25:15 PM): All I know is that there are peopel I care a lot about in my life
liljayster78 (12:25:25 PM): they're not ALWAYS gonna be there, though I wish they could
liljayster78 (12:25:37 PM): but I'm gonna enjoy and not take for granted I minute of that time
liljayster78 (12:25:49 PM): because you never fuckin know what's gonna happen tomorrow
liljayster78 (12:25:56 PM): you don't know when the next stroke's gonna come
liljayster78 (12:26:17 PM): you just don't...and I will never FUCKIN forgive myself if I took something for granted and lost it

I think that stirred up something...that people really do take what they have, which is right in front of them, for granted. We push people away, we block them, cut them out, whatever. Sooner or later, we're realize what little time there actually was to appreciate just their presence. What they had to offer. And I'm not saying that I have to offer soooo much, I'm just saying that we all need to realize just all the good things we have. I just hope and pray it's sooner, rather than later. I almost lost someone I truly loved and almost never said anything to him, and God gave me a second chance. Things don't always happen this way, and I am truly lucky that they did. Because really, you don't know what tomorrow has in store for anyone. It's totally cliche, but I don't think there's anyway to emphasize its truth. I am as far removed from knowing the secrets of life as much as the next guy, girl, what have you, but I am trying my best, and learning each day. I've made mistakes, yes, some more often than others, but I am learning....and wisdom is only discovered through experience...ALL experiences, not only your own.

If I had a wish today...
I would wish that I could take all of my family and friends' suffering, pain, fears, etc. just so they wouldn't have to go through it....everyone's going through so much stuff lately, I just wish I could relieve it all...

Thumbs up to...
-Footloose in the car on the way to work
-Asian Pears, mmmmmmmmm
-Open ears
-First conversations

Thumbs down to...
-Assumptions
-Comparisons

"Human beings, who are almost unique in having the ability to learn from the experience of others, are also remarkable for their apparent disinclination to do so."
-Douglas Adams